Another day; Another chance

I had really been slacking off on my housekeeping lately. Dirty dishes had stacked up for a few days.. and well... things just weren't the way they should be. I am home much of the time without obligations, so there is just no excuse for letting things get to the way they were. Besides pure laziness.. and complete lack of motivation.

Soo... I cleaned house for five hours straight today! I washed all dishes, put dishes away, cleaned counters, put laundry away, swept and mopped floors, vacuumed the entire house (except the "beast cave" and the currently occupied guest room), cleaned bathroom, dusted furniture, cleaned windows and mirrors, freshened up and made bed, and, and well.. little stuff here and there. I mean, it's certainly not perfect. This house still has a long ways to go. But, at least I feel a bit accomplished today.. maybe even slightly proud of myself, if that's allowed. If only I can keep this motivation every day!

Sick again...

So, I am sick… once again! Just a cold this time.. but will it ever end? It is taking on a different course than usual.. Usually my colds start out with a sore throat and then it moves into runny nose, congestion and sneezing and ends with a dry cough. This time I started with the runny nose and sneezing a few days ago. And last night the sore throat really hit! The kind of sore throat that causes you to swallow ever few seconds.. and hurts every time you do. I definitely lost sleep over it. Which isn’t good, especially since I have been in desperate need of sleep for the past few days now.

And I’m not sure if this was another symptom or not… but I practically fainted twice yesterday. I can always tell when it is coming, so I can get on the floor quickly before it causes me to fall to the floor. Hot flashes and cold sweats, dizziness, and then the vision starts going black. I can usually get down quick enough so that my vision doesn’t go completely black (it starts from the peripheral and works its way to the center). This time, I heard crickets in my ears. You know how you get that ringing in your ears sometimes? Well, it was just like that only the ringing sounded like a steady song of crickets chirping. I’m not sure what exactly causes my fainting spells. A lot of the time crackers, water, and rest help me feel better. But like I said, I don’t know if it had anything to do with the cold I have.

I am trying to get out of a slump and it seems like one thing after another hinders me from moving forward. But I am trying not to listen to the negative voices inside my head. I cannot be hindered by guilt or worthlessness. It’s okay to sleep and rest to be happy, healthy and stress-free. And it’s okay to do that during the day, if I can’t during the evening. And my husband really doesn’t care what the house looks like.. just a long as he has clothes to wear and food to eat. My worth is not judged by how much I do or clean every day. And I don’t have to compare how much I do with how much my husband does. He will keep loving me anyway even when I don’t measure up. It is nice to have a clean house.. it is a peaceful, stress-free haven for my husband. But resting in God’s presence is even better than resting in a clean house! My relationship with God comes even before the responsibilities He’s given me. Because I can’t take on those responsibilities without that relationship!

Sleep on tight... ‘Till the sunlight burns you happy. Until the sunlight burns a happy hole in your heart. <3

Spring cleaning

I did a little bit of spring cleaning last week. I started by scrubbing all of the kitchen cabinets and drawers, high and low. Inside and out, in every crevice and cranny. Re-organizing most as I went along. While I was doing this, my daring husband pulled out the stove and refrigerator to see what an epic disaster was lurking behind and underneath them. And there was. We discovered objects that we have never owned. And just a few that we had missed. "oh, that's where it's been hiding all this time!" We found toys and items from previous owners. Sponge Bob? (I don't have kids.) We found kitchen utensils, bouncy balls, pens, lotion, medicine. And a bottle that had managed to slip in between the back of the fridge and the coils. Interesting. I guess this is the first time we had pulled them out since we moved in. The floor was disgusting, no doubt. But I got it all cleaned! The floors, the walls, the sides (you know like where the stove meets the counter and there's that little open space where stuff likes to drip down?). The backs and sides of the stove and fridge. And the top of the fridge since we had to take everything off of it anyways. So now it's all nice and clean. :)
YAY!

Spare bedroom

I had a GREAT day yesterday! We have a spare bedroom that is usually never opened due to the complete disaster behind the door. It is a mix of an office, art room, reading room, and storage room. Needless to say, it never gets used except for the storage part. You know what I'm talking about. The kind of room that you can only open the door so far.. put another box or item in.. and shut it again before something falls out. The kind of room that, if the cat happened to sneak in, you'd never find it again. Yea. Well... yesterday, I cleaned this room!!! I mean, its not perfect. Whatever you do.. don't open the closet! The art corner needs shelves or some type of storage containers. The desk needs all the computer/electronic stuff hooked up (my husbands job). There is still a pile for my husband to go through, but it is re-located to the living room (so we don't forget about it, I guess). I didn't do any of the deep cleaning (dusting, getting rid of ceiling cob-webs, cleaning the blinds, etc.) but I am mighty proud of what I accomplished!



Bookshelf, etc. *Danger* Do not open the door to the right.


The desk. Yea, there's a pile of contained stuff under the desk. (and I don't even know if that TV works.)



My art corner. With a broken scale leaning against the drawers.



My art stuff.. not too bad, I just need to organize it on shelves or something.



It's CLEAN!



And now my kitty can explore this room that she's never seen before! (I think I can find her in here now.. lol)

Now I just hope we can actually keep it this way and utilize it for more than just a storage room. We've tried that before and it didn't work out too well. Maybe this time will be different. :)

Laundry schedule

I need to make a daily laundry schedule. Instead of doing all the laundry one day of the week, I have found it to be much easier and more satisfying to do one single load every day. Now to keep me on track, here is the schedule I have come up with:

Daily Laundry Schedule

• Sunday- DH work uniforms
• Monday- DH work uniforms
• Tuesday- My clothes
• Wednesday- DH clothes
• Thursday- Socks and Whites
• Friday- Towels, etc.
• Saturday- Bedding

I will see how that works for me.. Depending on our cycle of wearing clothes and when certain ones are needed, etc.

Another lazy day

It is beginning to look like a bad week in general. Not bad in the sense of me being in a bad mood, or bad things happening.. But bad as in 'I haven't gotten crap done!' I am failing as a homemaker this week. I think I will just ride out the rest of this week and have a nice fresh start come next week. :)

I've been so lazy the past few days. I get really unfocused sometimes. I can start browsing the Internet and get caught up in a million different things and get side-tracked in a million different directions. Or I can try to settle down into something (reading, etc.) and I end up falling asleep. Or, when I am up and trying to do something productive, my mind goes crazy and I start pacing laps just trying to figure out what I'm doing. It's insane really.

I think that having something going on in the background helps. Perhaps TV or music. It needs to be enough to be a slight distraction... (as crazy as it may sound, having an outward distraction might actually help me to focus. It can calm the stray thoughts in my mind while keeping me alert enough to not just give into sleep.) ...but not so much as to consume me. I can't do anything productive if a really good movie or a really good song comes on. I need to find the perfect balance.

I've been this way all my life. Even trying to do homework as a child, I needed some sort of slight distraction to help me focus. Trying to work in complete silence is just asking for fantasy land to take over. And I've always been one to get lonely easily. I always need to be in the same room as others, or at least have them within a good listening or viewing distance (kinda like my background noise). While I really do enjoy my sacred personal time alone, I love being around people. I guess thats another reason why it's so hard for me to be stuck at home all alone every day.. and why I try to connect with the outside world via the internet.

Anyways, next week is a new week, and a new chance for success. :)

Rough day

What a Saturday! I didn't even get started with any chores until mid-afternoon. I couldn't get to sleep last night, and I woke up not feeling the greatest. Menstruation is a killer. After a lazy morning, I got most of my Saturday chores finished (besides vacuuming and cleaning the bathroom.. which, I guess, isn't really saying a lot.) Its been rough all day, but not horrible. I've enjoyed myself.. but just with a dull ache every passing moment.
We had Hamburger Helper for dinner. We will hopefully go grocery shopping tomorrow.
I didn't exercise today, but I did yesterday. I am proud of myself for that at least.
I am off to bed now. We will have a nice (hopefully) family get-together for Mothers Day tomorrow. I hope all you mothers have a very special and wonderful day. Thank you for everything you give and sacrifice; you deserve to be praised!

A good Thursday

So, I had a pretty good day yesterday. I usually slack off even more on Thursdays because that is when DH has his day off. But I got my daily chores finished. It was rainy, so we didn't get anything extra on our to-do list accomplished (and there is a million things on that list). But overall, I enjoyed the day.
On another note, I haven't exercised in a few days and I really need to do that today.
Well, I gotta go finish up my chores. :)

Today

I took my dog to the vet this morning.
I will watch over the babies in the nursery at church this evening.
Hopefully, I will get some things accomplished today. Like my chores. and exercising.
Not from lack of time or anything, but from lack of motivation. I get very bored even when I know there is a million things to do. And I am distracted very easily. So, off I go to see what I can get done.