Another day; Another chance

I had really been slacking off on my housekeeping lately. Dirty dishes had stacked up for a few days.. and well... things just weren't the way they should be. I am home much of the time without obligations, so there is just no excuse for letting things get to the way they were. Besides pure laziness.. and complete lack of motivation.

Soo... I cleaned house for five hours straight today! I washed all dishes, put dishes away, cleaned counters, put laundry away, swept and mopped floors, vacuumed the entire house (except the "beast cave" and the currently occupied guest room), cleaned bathroom, dusted furniture, cleaned windows and mirrors, freshened up and made bed, and, and well.. little stuff here and there. I mean, it's certainly not perfect. This house still has a long ways to go. But, at least I feel a bit accomplished today.. maybe even slightly proud of myself, if that's allowed. If only I can keep this motivation every day!

Sick again...

So, I am sick… once again! Just a cold this time.. but will it ever end? It is taking on a different course than usual.. Usually my colds start out with a sore throat and then it moves into runny nose, congestion and sneezing and ends with a dry cough. This time I started with the runny nose and sneezing a few days ago. And last night the sore throat really hit! The kind of sore throat that causes you to swallow ever few seconds.. and hurts every time you do. I definitely lost sleep over it. Which isn’t good, especially since I have been in desperate need of sleep for the past few days now.

And I’m not sure if this was another symptom or not… but I practically fainted twice yesterday. I can always tell when it is coming, so I can get on the floor quickly before it causes me to fall to the floor. Hot flashes and cold sweats, dizziness, and then the vision starts going black. I can usually get down quick enough so that my vision doesn’t go completely black (it starts from the peripheral and works its way to the center). This time, I heard crickets in my ears. You know how you get that ringing in your ears sometimes? Well, it was just like that only the ringing sounded like a steady song of crickets chirping. I’m not sure what exactly causes my fainting spells. A lot of the time crackers, water, and rest help me feel better. But like I said, I don’t know if it had anything to do with the cold I have.

I am trying to get out of a slump and it seems like one thing after another hinders me from moving forward. But I am trying not to listen to the negative voices inside my head. I cannot be hindered by guilt or worthlessness. It’s okay to sleep and rest to be happy, healthy and stress-free. And it’s okay to do that during the day, if I can’t during the evening. And my husband really doesn’t care what the house looks like.. just a long as he has clothes to wear and food to eat. My worth is not judged by how much I do or clean every day. And I don’t have to compare how much I do with how much my husband does. He will keep loving me anyway even when I don’t measure up. It is nice to have a clean house.. it is a peaceful, stress-free haven for my husband. But resting in God’s presence is even better than resting in a clean house! My relationship with God comes even before the responsibilities He’s given me. Because I can’t take on those responsibilities without that relationship!

Sleep on tight... ‘Till the sunlight burns you happy. Until the sunlight burns a happy hole in your heart. <3

I know...

Yes, I know, I know... I need to post more often. And I will. Just not at this precise moment. But it will happen! I do have things to write about. "sickness, chores, job?, bible study, life in general, etc."
I will definitely have to get back with you on those! But as for now.. I'm just out of it. And I feel a headache creeping in at this very minute. UGH!

Not online

I'm sorry I haven't really been on here lately. I have been trying to focus on my home and my life, and the internet is not a high priority on that list. :) Hopefully I will be getting on here at least a little bit more often.
On July 1st, we are going on vacation for a week! YAY! However, I am not sure if we will have wi-fi, or the time for me to get online very often. I hope everyone has a great summer and exciting (or peaceful) vacations to those who are going somewhere.
:)

Happy Birthday to me!

So, my parents are gone now. The 'very long time' I was referring to will be three years, as they are moving overseas. This is the longest I have gone without them, but I know I will survive. Besides, they are giving us a webcam for skype so that we can stay in good contact. It's kind of a birthday present for me.
Yeah, my birthday was yesterday! Guess what I did? ABSOLUTELY NOTHING... and loved every minute of it. From the time I woke up to the time I went to sleep, I read non-stop with only a few breaks for bathroom and food.
I finished New Moon, the second in the Twilight Saga. No, I am not one of those girls. I am not that obsessed. But I must say, they are very good books and they suck you in. Know I just have to wait till I get around to getting (or borrowing) the third book. I am not one to just go out and buy it, unless it is seriously on sale. I have yet to see the movie, I know it won't be quite as good as the book, but I look forward to seeing it (them) anyways.
My parents took me out to eat before they left on Sunday. When dessert was brought out, a chocolate tallcake that we could all enjoy, my dad made the comment about it being my birthday. I completely blew it off like "yeah right, it's not my birthday", not even comprehending that my birthday actually was only 2 days away! I had no idea how it crept up on me so quickly.
My husband brought me home chinese yesterday, which I had requested, and completely stuffed myself on. And my mother-in-law took me to lunch today. It was spectacular! I feel so loved (and bloated.. lol) <3
Oh, and thanks to everyone that called and texted to wish me a Happy Birthday!

My crazy weekend!

On Saturday morning, I went to my Graduation Ceremony. I walked across stage and received my Associates degree. I am finally complete with school now!

That evening, I went to a jewelry party at my friend’s house. It was a blast! I brought red velvet cake mix cookies with chocolate chips melted on top. Yum! (recipe is below). I didn’t buy any jewelry (which I wasn’t planning on anyways), but I did sign up to host a party. We get free jewelry for being a host, which is the only way I would feel comfortable with getting any of it (I am beyond extremely frugal and stingy when it comes to buying stuff for myself). The next party will be mid-July.

That night, my lovely sister stayed over and we had a “Darko Movie Night”. We stayed up all night and watched Donnie Darko and then S. Darko. I’ve seen Donnie Darko before and knew I absolutely loved it!!! They were both amazing, although I must admit that Donnie Darko is sooo much better (Doesn’t it always work like that, the first one is always the best?). DH described it well when he said that it seemed like S. Darko was being weird and emo just for the sake of being weird and emo. It’s kind of true though… I mean it was a good movie, don’t get me wrong, but it just didn’t quite make complete sense with its purpose. Idk.

(click on images for IMDB description/review)

Anyways… Sunday, after taking sis home, was a complete waste of day. Period! Seriously, I don’t know how or why it happened, but I went to take a nap around 1:30pm. DH joined me a little while later. Crazy thing was that I didn’t even get up again until 6pm! And DH stayed in bed ‘till 8pm! What?!? I have no idea, but like I said… complete waste of day. It was pretty rainy and dreary outside though. But once again, there are still a million things to do on our To-Do List.

Red velvet cake mix cookies

www.recipezaar.com

Ingredients
1 (18 ounce) box red velvet cake mix (any brand will do)
2 eggs
1/3 cup oil

Directions
1 Mix all the cookie ingredients together. This will make a cookie dough.
2 Roll into balls and place on a lightly greased cookie sheet. Flatten down slightly (depending on the thickness you desire).
3 Bake at 375° until the tops crackle (about 8-10 minutes) or until desired doneness.
4 Cool and then frost (they're also good without the frosting).

Another lazy day

It is beginning to look like a bad week in general. Not bad in the sense of me being in a bad mood, or bad things happening.. But bad as in 'I haven't gotten crap done!' I am failing as a homemaker this week. I think I will just ride out the rest of this week and have a nice fresh start come next week. :)

I've been so lazy the past few days. I get really unfocused sometimes. I can start browsing the Internet and get caught up in a million different things and get side-tracked in a million different directions. Or I can try to settle down into something (reading, etc.) and I end up falling asleep. Or, when I am up and trying to do something productive, my mind goes crazy and I start pacing laps just trying to figure out what I'm doing. It's insane really.

I think that having something going on in the background helps. Perhaps TV or music. It needs to be enough to be a slight distraction... (as crazy as it may sound, having an outward distraction might actually help me to focus. It can calm the stray thoughts in my mind while keeping me alert enough to not just give into sleep.) ...but not so much as to consume me. I can't do anything productive if a really good movie or a really good song comes on. I need to find the perfect balance.

I've been this way all my life. Even trying to do homework as a child, I needed some sort of slight distraction to help me focus. Trying to work in complete silence is just asking for fantasy land to take over. And I've always been one to get lonely easily. I always need to be in the same room as others, or at least have them within a good listening or viewing distance (kinda like my background noise). While I really do enjoy my sacred personal time alone, I love being around people. I guess thats another reason why it's so hard for me to be stuck at home all alone every day.. and why I try to connect with the outside world via the internet.

Anyways, next week is a new week, and a new chance for success. :)

Rough day

What a Saturday! I didn't even get started with any chores until mid-afternoon. I couldn't get to sleep last night, and I woke up not feeling the greatest. Menstruation is a killer. After a lazy morning, I got most of my Saturday chores finished (besides vacuuming and cleaning the bathroom.. which, I guess, isn't really saying a lot.) Its been rough all day, but not horrible. I've enjoyed myself.. but just with a dull ache every passing moment.
We had Hamburger Helper for dinner. We will hopefully go grocery shopping tomorrow.
I didn't exercise today, but I did yesterday. I am proud of myself for that at least.
I am off to bed now. We will have a nice (hopefully) family get-together for Mothers Day tomorrow. I hope all you mothers have a very special and wonderful day. Thank you for everything you give and sacrifice; you deserve to be praised!

Today

I took my dog to the vet this morning.
I will watch over the babies in the nursery at church this evening.
Hopefully, I will get some things accomplished today. Like my chores. and exercising.
Not from lack of time or anything, but from lack of motivation. I get very bored even when I know there is a million things to do. And I am distracted very easily. So, off I go to see what I can get done.